Have you ever been in a situation where you are absolutely exhausted but you cannot stop?
What would you do if everything was getting heavier and heavier each day but everyone expected you to be strong?
People said “There are always solutions to all the problems in life.”, but when you cannot see or even foresee the way out of it, there will be chaos inside you. It will bottle up until you want to scream your lung out to relieve all the tension you are having within. You think it would help, unfortunately, there are cases that you cannot do so. You have to hold it in no matter how painful you are experiencing. Some days, in the middle of the night, you would want to cry out loud but there is only air comes out from your opened mouth, quietly, no voice, no sound at all, only tears fall down on your face. That is because you would not like to see your love ones worry about you or you would like to maintain your emotion and you don’t want it to lash out. All the expectations and hopes are on you, and the pain is too much to handle, to the point that you become so numb. Too numb to feel, too numb to give reaction, too numb to even open your mouth to scream out loud in agony, but to have a silent scream deep inside you alone to ease the pain.