Recovery

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One of the hardest things was learning that I was worth recovering.

Demi Lovato

There are always consequences of every action done either in positive or negative way. When the result is good, you are happy. When it is bad, you are unhappy. Yet, the surprising thing here is you tend to focus more on the good than the bad. Moreover, you tend to think and expect that the consequences would be a desirable one. You probably never realize that some of your actions cause pain to someone mentally or physically. Perhaps, you are hurting yourself too.

One day, when you realize about the real consequences, some cases are not too late but some cannot be fixed. At that moment, the painful truth stops you from seeking for healing. You keep blaming yourself for what you have done. However, you have to remind yourself that you have your own worth. You are worth recovering. You are worth being happy again.

Recovery is something that you have to work on every single day, and it is something that does not get a day off.

Demi Lovato

During this recovery process, I have looked back to my actions and consequences, and I really wish I could go back to stop myself from doing it. However, what is done is done. I have learnt more from my mistakes, and thanks to that which leads me to know people whom I have all around myself now. After all of these happened, with everybody who chooses to stay by side, they have shown and made me understand more about life and my self-worth. Because of them, I think I am enough and worthy to be healed.

Because of them, I realized my self-worth, self-love and self-respect come from myself. They taught me that the one who decides my own worth is me. No one has the right to make that decision, because they are called self-worth, self-love and self-respect for a reason. Therefore, I must love, take care and respect myself both mentally and physically more than before. The number of people will change with time; some of them see me at my best, some see me at my worst, so their opinion is not always valid.

Recovery takes time, efforts, patience, self-forgiveness and everything I have got.

Lastly, I think this moment is a wondrous time to express my sincere apology to those whom I have caused pain in any way. I would not say that I understand the painful feeling of yours because I realized that everybody feels differently towards a certain thing. Still, I am so sorry for disappointing and hurting you or your feeling. Here I am, not trying to ask for forgiveness, but I understand that apologizing is the right thing to do when I am the one who does wrong. After this, I hope we are able to move on from the pain, and positively look forward to the future.

We fall, we break, we fail. But then, we rise, we heal, we overcome.

Anonymous

As new year is coming, and I am here wishing nothing but to see everyone happy all year round. Not only people who stay but also those who left; you all deserve happiness.

New year 2021, please bring happiness, wisdom, solutions to solve the unsolved-problems to all the people around the world.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2021~ 🎊

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